[poem]The night you brought back my emotions

So i know that its not wuit a poem or something, i just wanna hear an honest opinion about this writing and ill be glad if you tll me

“The day I lost something meaningful, you weren’t there.
I was lost in my emotions, and it showed. My heart was bleeding out, crying that it had been torn apart.
It was never there—the love I was seeking. It was never there, the part I had been dreaming about. And then I lost it. I lost the memory of my own self.
I was dreaming about the part where I was tearing you apart with all the love I had for you. I was bleeding inside out, but I could never hurt you the way you did.
You brought back something I thought I could never have, and then you just pulled it all away.
I thought I would never fall apart from thinking about you.
I did.
And I fell hard.
I was broken inside out, and now I’m thinking of ways I can show you that I’m not broken.
But that’s not how it works.
I want to show you what emotions can do. What feelings can give you. What someone who truly cares can give you.
The ugliest thing about you is that you don’t deserve all of that. And I don’t want you to ever read this.
Not until I die.
Not until I believe I’ll never see you again and can finally be truly free from all the crap life has caused.
So hey—if you ever think about being the bigger guy in a relationship, pause.
Pause and think about being the bigger person for your fucked-up self.
Be a bigger person for all of us. For the people who think love could never be freeing.
But I think I’m not the one.
I think true love is something that brings you a kind of joy you don’t understand, and probably never will.
You could.
You truly could.”