dinner is shrimp tacos and potstickers - all ingredients from trader joe’s.

my eyes have been itchy and swollen in a way that felt too aggressive to just be allergies so i went to the doctor to check for anything else before just downing antihistamines. 

the appointment was fun and pleasant, but at the beginning they wanted me to do eye tests (which i thought was weird for a medical appointment), but i was really struggling with them in a way i hadn’t before in the past and i was feeling a little down about it but brushed past it. 

at the end of the medical examination he tells me he’s worried about my eyes and makes me do the eye tests again (a different method), and i cover one eye and i can’t see anything and i just start to cry because im scared. these things used to be so easy and I’ve always had perfect vision that I knew would fade over time, but I’m only 33 and this kind of potential decline just felt frustrating and unfair, especially since i’ve done everything possible to retain my eyesight. plus my body’s been failing me in other ways lately so that doesn’t help. 

turns out my eyes were just too dry and the tears helped me see again 🙃 and my vision is fine. so now i have to see him in two weeks after being the crying girl. 

grateful for every year gut i’m totally over having to treat my body like an old car, wondering if each diagnostic is temporary or permanent

I cried at the Optometrist today