Porn is officially a death sentence to me.

Hi, I'm divinity.

I discovered porn when I was at least about 10 years old and had a friend in primary school that was obsessed with talking about sexual stuff and making nude versions of my OCs. At first I was disgusted, pornography was shamed in my religion but I slowly started becoming addicted as soon as I started watching more. When the site was blocked, I decided to go and consume more material by searching up rule 34 of fandoms I was in. In my primary school years, every thought of mine came to sex. Sex. Sex. Sex with teachers.. Sorry. Sounds awkward. And I faced so much bullying

Middle school has stayed the same ever since but I became so fucking suicidal since I was bullied relentlessly in my life and I was bodyshamed. I started becoming insecure of my body even though my teachers said my weight was ideal

Life has been hell to me, my mom always blame it on the phone and I've been crying so much at school, I was even wondering to jump off the school's second floor(which led to my class). I'll fucking kill myself if I don't desexualize my brain and I'll fucking stab myself while masturbating if I wasn't so afraid of death and I wish I wasn't so horny and I wish I wasn't bullied so much to the point I felt like I was losing my talent in art.