my escape from being ugly is suicide

i have no point of being alive if im ugly, i wont ever get into a romantic relationship bc im ugly, i wont make friends bc im ugly, i wont be able to have a peaceful day bc im ugly, because im ugly suicide crosses my mind 12-14 times a day, 12-14 times a day i think about jumping off a bridge so i dont have to worry about my face anymore, my looks make me go mental, my face genuinely makes me feel like i need to be put in a mental hospital, 5 days ago i was making a coffee and dropped my glass onto the ground by accident because i was thinking so deep about how ugly i am my hands got shaky and i got distracted.