Is life actually just this

Genuinely what's actually the point I don't see any reason to keep going, because even if I can make the world a better place, it's just going to be undone tenfold, ten times quicker. The only reason I haven't left is I need to finish school, I don't even know if I have depression I haven't been to any sort of therapist to ask, and I'm still way to young, so parents are just going to go "Oh you don't know about life" or some bull like that, I've lost all motivation for academics because I'm shit at it, and of course this has to happen in the period of my life that matters a lot, GCSE, and I'm getting dumber too, I don't even know anything that the teacher's saying, but before, I knew everything, and don't get me started on my memory, I can't remember a thing, especially now with short form content taking over the world, AND AI

Overall I'm on here just to find motivation to actually continue with school because, I cannot be bothered, I actually cannot, I can't even do my homework anymore either dude im gonna cry