They came downstairs because I was doing handstands to test how drunk I was and the sound of me falling down made them wonder what the hell was going on.

The moment I said “have you guys ever met a tranny” my roommates tried to shut me up and pull me away cause they knew sober me wouldn’t have wanted to be outed, but I was way too drunk and chatty. At least they tried.

It was bad. I was only talking to one of the girls and said I thought she was cute. Then I noticed the other girls standing literally right next to her and then went down the line calling each of them cute and then delivered my pièce de résistance. Idk how much I said cause again I don’t remember anything but my roommates said I kept going on and on with it. Also I forgot their names, in addition to one of my roommate’s names, and called them by my roommates’ names several times. My roommates are all male btw.

I went on a “walk” (I was dragged) with them and my roommates that I don’t remember either, and based on the text messages in the main groupchat, they helped take care of me.

After we got back, I had apparently laid in a puddle of my own vomit crying saying I hated the girls seeing me in this state. The girls had not seen me in this specific state. They had left half an hour ago. They weren’t even there. 

I was lying in the recovery position in my own vomit and my roommate tried to move me out of it. Apparently I got very distressed and lectured him on the dangers of asphyxiation via choking on my own tongue/vomit and emesis aspiration when drunk and supine, and the structures of the upper airway.

I kept insisting to everyone they needed to wake me up at 1100 because I had ambulance tomorrow. I was very insistent on this. I had the foresight to pull out my phone and set alarms but I was so drunk I started the stopwatch instead and my roommates had to set my alarms for me.

I told one of my roommates that I wanted to be like him because he was so cool and charming, but that it was a shame he was short and asian. I’m the same height as him and asian so I hope to god they understand it was just projection and not a dig at him. Also I hit him in the nuts twice while flailing my arms around while talking on the ground.

I told all of my roommates I trusted them and loved them all so much and had also specified I meant this platonically.

I remember tiny slivers about crying about being trans, my transition being a failure, and dissecting my roommates’ cissex bodies and all the advantages they have. I also kept crying and apologizing for being a burden. 

A lot more shit happened that I don’t remember. My roommates are refusing to tell me the bulk of what I said for the sake of my dignity. They thought I was hilarious overall though. They are actual angels sent from heaven I swear to god

I am not someone that would dare to approach women, let alone hit on them, so the fact that drunk me did this is actually insane.

Successfully got up for my 24 hour triple shift afterwards so at least I don’t have to face the music for a while. I’m typing this post a little hungover but I’m on hour 10 of my mega shift and feeling ok.

I need to cook something for them as an apology dinner. 8-person meal is tricky especially because I’m not a cook, but I got an idea. I’m thinking yum nua (Thai beef salad) and dong gua cha (winter melon sweet tea) because they’re light, sleeper hits, and easy to make.

Got blackout wasted. I don’t have any memory of this. My neighbors (four girls that I’ve had over for dinner before) came to check out the ruckus. I loudly said “Have you guys ever met a tranny?” before immediately coming out to them. Also I said “Sober me thinks all of you are super cute”