Today marks…

1077 days since I found out my wife had an affair
776 days since I found out my wife restarted her affair
364 days of sobriety
190 days since my first ACOA meeting
50 days since my wife chose to leave me
1 day since I learned my wife didn’t love me when she married me.

Here I am, still trying to work step one. I don’t know if I’ll ever get past that one.

I’ve recreated my childhood life. The only difference is the divorce.

At 46 years, I don’t think that I will ever escape my past. I thought I had. But, I’m sure we all want to think that.

I wanted so much better for my family, for my child. But here we are. So many generations, so difficult to change.