I have such a hard time leaving toxic relationships

Hey, 20F here. I have this problem where I just can’t leave toxic friendships. It’s like I always gaslight myself into thinking they are a good person (or the image of the person if when I met them), even though they have shown me that they’re not. I like to forgive all the times they have done me wrong and replace them with the really fun times. I don’t accept the truth because it hurts realizing that the person you care about is not a good friend.

I normally have trouble communicating. I take things waaaayyy too personally when someone is annoyed or angry at me, and I get extremely hurt. I know it is a me problem though. I want to do the same but I am scared that my friend will have the same reaction. I also hate making things awkward or giving a chance for them to blow up and leave.

Help?