30 reasons to love you, 1 reason not to

1. The way you notice my moods, even when it’s subtle.

2. The way you try to help me, depending on my mood.

3. Our conversations. Especially the ones at 2am when you're more vulnerable and honest.

4. Not caring about fashion, but still listening to me talk about clothes anyway.

5. Offering to help me with school. (Even though you do that with everyone)

6. Willing to listen to me vent.

7. Letting me listen to him vent, and trusting me with his secrets.

8. The veins on his hands when he types urgently.

9. Him shaking his legs when he's concentrating. (I noticed this after he told me about it.)

10. His patience, but also the way he gets ragebaited so easily it makes him look cute.

11. How he always looks sad, but it’s in a cute angsty puppy way.

12. How he remembered the classes we were in together when we only knew each other for less than a week.

13. The fact that he’s always so patient when explaining stuff to me (most of the time).

14. The way he’s so fixated on whether he should perm or cut his hair. It’s adorable for no reason.

15. His distinct style. (It’s performative but I like it anyway because it’s him).

16. How he knows what I need before I do. 

17. The way he’s always on call. He’s so chronically online but it makes him cuter somehow??

18. His intelligence. (I’ve always had a thing for smart guys.)

19. He plays the violin, and excels at it. People who play instruments are automatically attractive in my book.

20. How he has a designated cafe spot that he introduced me to. I want to know all of the places he likes.

21. The way he tells stories without making my low-attention span self bored.

22. I always feel like I’m being taken care of. 

23. He always finds ways to verbally appreciate me, even when I’m contributing basically nothing.

24. He lets me join in on whatever he is doing.

25. Whenever he falls asleep on call he makes these random thuds. (Is he falling off his chair??)

26. He is always helping someone, and is just an overall  kind person. I’m a bad influence compared to him but I crave that kindness for myself.

27. How he still manages to find the will to keep going despite all of his hardships and manages to help others get out of those same kinds of hardships too.

28. I’m older than him. ( I guess this is more of a preference.)

29. When he gets irritated and starts ranting for 15 minutes about a minor inconvenience. It makes me admire how dedicated he is to find fault with everything about that one inconvenience. It’s just endearing overall, or I guess everything he does is endearing.

30.  Him disliking a game and not playing it with even his closest friends but downloading it when I asked to play together.

31. He is already madly in love with someone. Someone that is not me.

Please be honest. He's like absolutely obsessed with this one girl, and I feel like I'm falling deeper each day. If this keeps going on, I just know my heart is going to be shattered and I doubt that he will like me back. What can I possibly do?