tattoos L post

basically I got 2 chest tattoos earlier this year in the wake of dealing with a very traumatic experience (SA) right smack on my chest/collarbones area. my reasoning for getting these made sense at the time I guess but I was also kind of manic and now these tattoos are a reminder of a really difficult time and didn’t help me “reclaim my body” or whatever.

i’m probably gonna book a tattoo removal consultation this month because while I can sometimes accept them, I’ve just grown to hate them so much. I feel like I’ve trashed my body in a way. i know tattoo removal is expensive, i work part time and just went back to school but this is getting to the point where i just want to do something about it.

has anyone dealt with something similar? i feel so much shame about this probably to an unhealthy degree. at this point i just want my body back :(