OCD skin picker

I struggle with ocd skin picking really bad … started with just my bikini area it was never that bad … 2023/2024 I struggled with a cocaine addiction. The picking became worse !! I’m about 2 years sober from coke but I then started taking adderall regularly for work, I work nights. I found myself having episodes after work for like hours on the come down..anyway I’m couple months clean from adderall. Now I’m just stuck with a shit load of scarring!! What started as just mild picking now has me covered in scars ! My legs , inner thighs, hip area , arms ! I never had acne I just struggled with some hair bumps !! I’m sad I’m approaching 40 single no kids now I fear I won’t ever have these things because I ruined myself :( I’m looking to connect with anyone who’s dealing with these same issues . Anyone in relationships dealing with scarring ? Taking regular vacations ? I’m scared I won’t ever experience these things because I’m no longer desirable.