I'm Surrounded but feel alone.

Hi,

Idk how to evem post this so here goes.

I'm surrounded by loved oness but I feel ao lonely everyday.

I'm Married, a dad, a son, and a father. All of which are supposed to be the richest things you can have but part of me feels empty all the time.

I wear a mask that smiles. I wear a mask that talks along and acts like everything is okay.

I even say everything is okay when asked. I always have. And I've always never been fine.

I can't help but feel like I'm missing something more but I don't know what that something is. I don't even know if I'd know it if I found it.

I used to think I'm just broken but now I think I'm just wired different. And to me those are 2 different things.

And I feel selfish for feeling this way because I am sure there are people that are lonlier. But is it fair to myself to minimize my feelings so I can attribute a greater modifier to somebody else? Or is that some aort of subconscious defense/deflection mechanism.

Anybody else feel this way?