OCD is causing horrible jaw clenching 24/7 with no relief. Making me want to end it.

Every day I wake up and wait for the anxiety to hit and then I’m just constant clenching my jaw. Really hard. If I’m ruminating (which is most of the time), I feel my temples throb, heart race, my jaw gets shocks of pain, my lymph nodes and under my ears are super sore too. I’ve had the clenching issues for a while, but recently they’ve been getting really really bad and all-consuming. It’s affecting my neck, facial expressions, and posture too. Basically I look constipated in public. Soon, my teeth while be fucked as well. They already hurt really bad.

I need to work on the mental health aspect to curb this. And I can’t help but feel so hateful towards myself and my brain for causing this pain. I wear a night guard and my mom said she might let me get Botox injections but I’m having insurance issues so that’s not a sure thing right now. Does anyone relate to the ocd/anxiety driven issues?

Another thing is I’m struggling really bad with Anorexia and I get anxious when I eat so I clench more which makes it harder to eat. Like very counterproductive of me. Idk I’m just so miserable that my suicidal ideation has increased a lot, it all feels very hopeless.

I feel so stupid for letting my brain control my body in such a way