Maybe grieving wasn't the best financial decision

I quit my corporate job in May 2025 bc one of my parents died, which caused me to rehome and take care of my living parent. I was also in a toxic workplace (normal toxic, I guess?) and was overwhelmed by the weight of the responsibilities. I had a year worth of savings I planned on using through my hiatus, but I did deplete them by the time I got another job a year later. I've been at my current job now for 5 months, getting paid 5k less.

Now I'm back to square one, at a job I don't particularly like, with no savings, debt racked up, and getting paid less.

This came up in a conversation with my live-in boyfriend who said I was't mentally strong enough and that I should've just not quit my job back then. That I should've pushed through, quiet quit while I looked for another job, so I wouldn't have to blow my savings and stunt my earning potential. He said that everyone goes through grief yet still show up for work. Like his boss, whose parents both died within a month, yet he still showed up and pushed through.

Part of this hurts bc my bf, whom I love and I assume loves me, saw my lowest point and made a dig about my mental strength and how I should've just persevered. Throughout my unemployment, I never asked him for financial support and we kept the bills split in half like we did normally.

I guess I just feel guilty about not being strong enough. I should've been able to separate professional life from personal life. And even though my bf is right, I feel hurt by his words and how he perceives me.

Sorry if this is the wrong sub...