im pretty sure i have herpes and have no idea if i can ever date/have spontaneous teenage romance again

I recently hung out with a friend of mine, we had a few drinks and kissed a bit as friends (just for the fun of it), it went back home and I have small white/clustered lumps on the inside of my lip that sting when i even drink something. ill be seeing the doctor soon and im sure I already know the verdict. since seeing it ive been distraught over the fact im still so young and will have to disclose this everytime I meet someone/have a spontaneous moment/kiss.

the reason im posting this is im hoping there will be someone on this sub that has or is going through this to, and i need to know if this really is influential to my dating life and future as I think.

im scared about ever having a kid, even just drinking with friends and passing a bottle about, sharing anything, or going forth with any romantic gesture, again, like a kiss, or a food date, etc. or how future partners would see me/reject me for such.

im distraught, and i feeling disgusting. i have no idea what to do.

any help or advice would be appreciated.