Was this R? I keep tell him it not.

I want to know if this was rape, something that happened a long time back between me and my husband. I keep tell him it not.

First of all, you cannot stop what going on in a person head. If I think of kick a dog, I should get prosecuted? If in my head I think of fuck my favorite Chinese actor, then that be cheating on my husband too?

Intent is internal thoughts in your head. Actions is what dictate the crime. Rape is about CONSENT. You cannot rape the willingly.
If every fiber of my being willingly submit to him, then there nothing can be going on in his head that can override the woman me consent.

There was an incident back then between me and my husband. If fully consent and reciprocate back the whole time during intercourse, then I don't see how can that be rape.

My husband did pin me down the bed, and restraint me with his body so hard that I couldn't move an inch, and proceed on missionary sex with him on top of me. I'm not stupid, I KNOW exactly his intention when he pin me down the bed, be it if in his head is rape or punishment sex.

BUT I consent fully, why do I say I consent? Here why: When he on top of me and thrusts and kiss my mouth, neck, shoulders, breasts. I reciprocate and participate back, I also hug him back and kiss his shoulder back.

I moan to his thrusts, I also put my hands on his waist when he thrusts me. I even mouth kiss him back when he thrusts me. How can this be rape? I participate back.

Sorry, I did not freeze, I grab him his body and hug him hard as he thrusts me, it not raped. No raped victim do that to their rapist. I clearly consent, I participate back.

This is very normal to us, as we always have sex like that, where he does all the work in bed, and I'm the Pillow princess (he has a thing for Pillow princess). Minus the restraint me so hard that I cannot move an inch part.

I reciprocate back the whole time during intercourse, I even orgasms (multiple vaginal orgasms). He orgasms at the end.

I feel that was NOT rape. BUT in his brain he see it as rape because he cannot get pass himself that he had the intention of punishment sex. Or maybe in his head at that time he wanted to rape me, in his head, his fantasy whatever.

I cannot stop what going in a person head. I told him it not rape. But he feels guilty, and still feel guilty about it in all these years.

I cannot stop what going in a person head. I told him it not rape. But he feels guilty, and still feel guilty about it in all these years.

How to get my husband to get over his guilt? It been many years and he live in the guilt of he raped me that day. Maybe he has a thing for CNC kink BDSM stuff, then he needs to tell me so we can explore together.