I’m Struggling With My Mental Health and I Seriously Need Support

Hey i am going through a serious mental health issue depression, anxiety, isolation, feeling sad all the time, no excitement, suicide thoughts continuously 4 month...

I don't know what to do and how to deal with it, I don't want to live this life...

I fell in love with one sided, twice the time expressed, she insulted, shot, ignored, abused, now she blocked me ...after that I got so much trauma and mental health issues...

I want to take professional help but I don't have enough money.. families are giving pressure mentally to me to earn money...but I am not healed, not move on.. some serious mental issues I am dealing with for around 4 months.

Any professional psychologist, psychiatrist, trauma, depression specialist please help me i really need your help .....