Depraved thoughts of a touch starved trans girl

I’ve loved reading this subreddit for a while and wanted to share some of my own fantasies. I’ve been transitioning for just over a year and though my sex drive is lower I still have depraved thoughts. I hope this post is okay and doesn’t violate any rules.

One of my more prominent thoughts is being coerced into sex. Being with female friends dancing or hanging out drinking and I’ve had too much while they slowly start feeling me up and as I try to protest they get aggressive. They hold me down and tell me how wrong it was to ever think I was a man and that if I wanna be a woman so bad then they’ll make me feel like one. Ripping my clothes and shoving panties in my mouth as they tell me to stop fighting and accept it, how I’ve always wanted it, how I’m such a tease and this is what happens to slutty trans girls.

I just moved into a city and joined a wonderful community and all i can think about is each of them taking advantage of me. Forcing me on my knees, bending me over a table, pressing against a bathroom wall. Putting cigarettes out on my ass as they fuck me, spilling drinks and forcing them down throat. Calling me slurs, degrading me, telling me this is the only way I’ll ever be treated as a real girl. Fuck it, fucking me until I lose all mental capacity and become just a mindless fuck slave kept on all fours to service them in public. Every time I try to fight they slap, hit, kick me until I get back into my place as a pathetic loser who is too helpless to fight back.

I literally can’t even get hard anymore but think about this all the time, slack jawed faced down in my mattress grinding against my wand.