Hundreds of failed streaks, then 700 days abstinence, then 700 days degeneracy. Back on the horse with a 40 dayer.

Things are beginning to clear up finally. Starting to note little joys and music is starting to sound better to the extent it makes me feel things. Getting rid of old piles of garbage thoughts.

I hope this is the final "streak" which pushes me to escape velocity to finally quit lust.

We can do this, guys ! No more of this cesspit !