I teased my gay best friend with a bikini and almost factory reset his sexuality

Last night was maybe the hardest I've laughed in months and I need to tell someone because I cannot tell our friend group without outing him lol

My friend Jay is gay. Like gay gay. He's not out though because his parents are super religious and would lose their minds so he's closeted and I'm one of the only people who knows. We've been close for years and he's always been safe to be around, like I change in front of him, I walk around in a towel, I've literally sat on his lap in a club and felt nothing from him, he's my gay bestie and that's that

OR SO I THOUGHT lmaoo

So last month our friend group went to the beach and I posted a bunch of bikini pics on my close friends story. Normal stuff. Yesterday Jay was at my apartment and we were going through each other's vacation pics and I handed him my phone to scroll through mine and when I looked over he was ZOOMED ALL THE WAY IN on a pic of me in a black bikini top, like pinch zoomed, and I have big tits so that bikini was doing god's work on my chest and this man was studying it like a textbook 😭

I SCREAMED laughing and he turned SO red and was like "I was looking at the background!!" and I was like sir you were zoomed in on my tits the background is the OCEAN there is nothing to see there

So because I am a terrible person and I love chaos I went to my closet and pulled out the actual bikini and said "you wanna see it up close since you were zooming in so hard?" and he was laughing and telling me to stop but I went to my bathroom and put it on and came back out and did a little spin and my tits were spilling out of that bikini looking insane and his face went completely blank for like two seconds before he grabbed a pillow and put it on his lap

A PILLOW

ON HIS LAP

JAY, MY GAY FRIEND, GRABBED A PILLOW TO HIDE WHAT I AM 99% SURE WAS A BONER 😭😭😭

And I've bumped into him before when we're close and I've felt him get hard against me a couple times but I always assumed it was just a random body thing because he's GAY and bodies do that sometimes right?? But the pillow grab was SO deliberate lmaoo

So obviously I had to push it further because again, terrible person, I loosened the strap of my bikini top and let it fall a little and my tits were basically fully out and I rubbed my nipples right in front of him and said "oh no my bikini is falling off what do I do" and he was laughing but also gripping that pillow SO tight and I could see his knuckles going white and he was biting his lip and looking at me and looking away and looking at me again and his face was so red I thought he was going to pass out

Then he stood up with the pillow still in front of him like a shield lmaoo and goes "I need to leave right now because if I stay I'm gonna get factory reset and I can't afford that" and I was DYING on the floor laughing and he practically ran out of my apartment still holding MY pillow and he didn't even realize he took it until he texted me from his car like "I have your pillow, I'll return it when I've recovered from whatever the fuck just happened"

I texted him back "keep it, you clearly needed it more than me 😘" and he sent back a middle finger emoji and then "your tits are insane btw, for a friend's observation" and I have not stopped laughing since

I don't know what this means for Jay's sexuality and it's not my business to figure out lol, bodies are weird, attraction is weird, and I love him regardless of who he likes, but I'm definitely never letting him live down the pillow thing and I'm definitely wearing that bikini the next time he comes over just to see what happens, or science hehe