Today i am at my lowest.

Having a bb that orbits the room is taking a life out of me. I am useless and a burden to anyone. If i could have traded my whole life for a day that i couldve normal breath, i would not hesitate. I just want to be normal even for a day is all im asking. But right now, everytime i get my hopes up, the fall is more painful. i cant feel any happiness in what i do, what i think, and what i see no matter how hard i have tried. Myself is so empty.

So, self-deleting is tempting me again. Hopefully, what comes after this life is less cruel.