Really struggling right now.

I (27f) just got dumped from an ungodly relationship. We lived together and had been together for over two years but marriage never seemed like it would happen unless I passed certain expectations. But I was really given bare minimum in the relationship there was no empathy or compassion on his side truly. I left more than once but always came back. Not this time. I messed up. I said hurtful things through anger and made dangerous unwise decisions to which he told me he’d never forgive me for and he told me to leave and never come back.

I did go back one last time to just apologize and I let that door close.

I was never unfaithful or anything like that. But man oh man I’m at such a loss of what to even begin to do with myself I know I need to get re established in church and really live my life for god now. I just don’t know where he ends and I begin I feel like I lost a part of me.