1 week sober…

Trigger warning (I’m new to this). In all honesty this is my first time posting on Reddit. I’ve usually found a thread that already relates to my situations but this time is different.
I’m an alcoholic… at least I’m desperate to think otherwise. I drink every night just so I can be a little happy before I go to bed. However, I know this is wrong. I know it is, but for some reason it’s habit at this point.

If I’m staying somewhere else or I’m extremely tired I don’t drink and I don’t feel the need to but once I’m alone and feel like I need to wake up early I just go ahead and get a little drunk so I can go to bed early.

Again, I know it’s not right but how do I stop the habit? How do I not miss being giddy and laughing at my favorite shows tipsy. I feel awful and am so embarrassed that I’m so used to it but I know it’s not the end of the world. I’m trying to change and I hope I keep this up (1 week sober)