Reddit wali bond

So i met a guy on reddit. He approached me 4 times at different dates and months. I've never opened his inbox untill the 4th time he messaged. We chat and he was quite easy going and friendly. Soon enough we became "good friends". We actually wanted to have a bond where we can share everything. And we got into it. He shared about his timely/hourly stuff where he is at..work and all. All appeared to be genuine. While chatting i got comfortable to with him. One of the purest thing why we got connected to me is because of how connected he is religious and spiritually, since im into these too. Now thing is this was the first time i have chatted with somekne on reddit for long hours so I took time to trust him. Initially it came. We revealed how we look like to each other and shared numbers.

We argued at times but all got solved. Recently I saw that the intensity of how we speak have decreased. I didn't mind thinking he is busy with work which he is actually. 2 days ago he asked me a question " don't you miss me "? Now even though I was missing him I didn't say it. I answered only as "im observing" how things are going. He got furious saying what's there to observe he is not a criminal bla bla. Why am I being suspicious. Thing is we are friends and I didn't want to bring out missing stuff so early as I was unsure of what if he wouldn't like it as we are just good friends. Yeah friends do miss each other but I was scared of saying it. Now he started speaking about me being suspicious. Ive spent hours trying to tell him I didn't say the suspicious word but he did. I said so many things to him. And he got more furious. All my point was I didn't say that but he did. Things went ugly both trying to point out something. Eventually I told him yes I do miss you but why couldn't you say it first. Im sure you do too. But it was too late. The next day I texted " are you angry" he replied " very much". And we argued once again me trying to prove my point and him his point. It got so painful that I could feel his words and i started to feel like a burden. I was holding myself, not to cry but ultimately I did. I started feeling this really hard and was bidding him bye in a long message. My last text was "i don't know why this is hurting and im crying badly but it is " he replied something similar and then I deleted my whole reddit account. He has my contact details I expected him to text me atleast the next day if not immediately that night but he didn't. When we were speaking he once mentioned to never ghost him. I was thinking have I ghost him ..did he feel that way? Then I reassured myself saying no he has my contact details I am worth a message atleast. But this started eating me away, I made a new reddit account and was feeling scared to text him. So I tried to post thinking maybe he will reach my account but then it was too much waiting so I inboxed him directly. He answered within minutes. He said he did felt ghosted and that we couldn't better ourselves (the conflict) and then said i appreciate your message. The tone you were speaking yesterday and now there is a difference and sincerity. I said thank you he replied as your welcome. Now yesterday I sent a pic of a temple I've been to and he replied " 🙏 ". I asked are you angry. He answered as no. But im very busy with my work. ( i know he is working on some projects and is very busy currently ) but u could feel as if am forcing him to talk. I replied back saying okay won't disturb you and asap when you are done with work we need to talk. I double texted by sending a pic of my dinner saying eating this while missing you. ( that's something he eats regularly) he replied saying I just got done with work...gotta sleep have to wake up early..u enjoy.

I replied back as goodnight take care. Today morning he texted you too back. No goodmorning nothing. Now I really feel like im being too much. As if he doesn't want me and im just crushing my self respect trying to mend things.

Two things going around my mind

1. If he truly considered me as a friend wouldn't he try to reach me out on my number?

2. Or maybe he didn't because he is mature enough to respect "my going away"? ( but that was just in anger and pain..i always told him im here to stay but also I did spoke about going away once as I never wish to be a burden on anyone ..and if someone makes me feel like I'm on it triggers me )

What ive concluded is my trigger was his suspicious word and his trigger was my observe word.

I so wish to talk to him and solve this. I can send a long text to him on all this but I don't want to disturb him since he has huge workload and I don't want to feel this by him " oh god again her and her msgs"

But what should I do in the meanwhile? To wait? To stop expecting us to get back like before? Does he even want this bond now or its over?

Its eating me emotionally. Please pray that we have a conversation and solve things.