Having ocd is actual hell

Like I literally hate some numbers and some numbers are bad numbers for me like 8, FUCK YOU 8 AND 11, FUCK YOU TOO. LIKE I ONLY TRUST 3 OR 6 AND MAYBE 7 THE OTHER NUMBERS ARE MEH FOR ME BUT I WILL NEVER TRUST 8 OR 13 THESE ARE BAD NUMBERS LIKE FUCK YOU BOTH