I know there's too much of my ego in this work.

This could be important work, not because these are my ideas but because of their potential to help humanity on a large scale. Could be. It's not important. I'm building a shitty little chicken coop, a badly built cinderblock wall, a tiny section of a shipping container wall. It's not important because the people who should be helping me are not. And let's be clear: my ability to waltz in and do the things I'm doing isn't any great success. I feel like it's the result of decades of failure by establishment building organizations, producers, and academia.

I didn't do this stuff because I'm smart. I did it because I had the requisite building experience, life experience, and for whatever reason just didn't quit, after two years of complete failure. But I'm angry about it. I don't feel like there's any outcome that will satisfy me. Yes I want to make money off of this. I hope to get rich. And I don't think that's going to happen. I want to see wholesale adoption of at least one of these designs, but I don't think this is going to happen.

There are so many sources of anger for me but the biggest one is that people have said it's my attitude that has kept me from success. Fuck that. People will say anything they can to avoid helping people like me. It would be very easy for someone with means to pick up what I am doing and work parallel, or even work with me. I'm a nice guy...I just shit on poeple online because they can be fucking morons, intentionally I believe.

I've begged so many people for help, who have the means to do so. They didn't just hurt me, (and my pain isn't important int he grand scheme), they hurt a lot of poeple in substandard housing who could have gotten something better. The way I see it, if you don't realize how much the block wall design could help people, it's because you have made a decision not to understand. And if you understand and don't help me, despite having massive amounts of resources at your disposal, you are a villain. There's quite a few people who I would lump into that last statement.