The internet has been so heavy lately

The news has been heavy for a while. But the new about Cornell has been making me sick. The fact that they got an essay and she got ptsd makes my stomach turn.
But it’s also so triggering to see it on every corner of the internet.
My own anniversary is within the week but the similarities in our stories is enough to cause my own ptsd to flair. The way it was approached with the offer of a 3 some, the fact that the house was full of people and no one said a thing, I was drugged through a drink, I was the one who had to drop out of school. The other 2 got to keep their athletic scholarships and one even got a job at the university after graduation. I barely even got an apology. I didn’t even get access to the resources they offered after dropping out.
I made the school aware. I made the police, the sheriffs, everybody aware. I lost friends and pushed away the others.
I’m officially years behind all of my peers because I couldn’t stand to be on campus. I lost my job because I was afraid of seeing them.
Every years around this time, I get horrible nightmares and they’re still out there oblivious to what they’ve caused.
I’m proud of Jane doe. I’m proud of her for doing something i could no longer do. I’m proud of all of the other victims speaking out against their abuse. And I’m proud of myself for making it this farther then I ever thought. But I’m really still really angry.