Ever felt like i should just propose to a girl i liked just to get rid of those anxious thoughts about what ifs?

Propose is just stupid, you already know when a girl like u or not, specially more if you are rejection sensitive and anxious person like me. I would notice every little actions or face expressions and come to detective owla conclusion and it really does come true all the time.

So proposing was just a formality, just wanted a written rejection from the other side.

Its kinda sad but i never had a girl act all girly and loving towards me.

So at 25 years of age, I no longer have a crush or make a move on any crushes. It the same story, i like a girl, cant even talk to her cause i am shy and anxious, so she never knows me or becomes my friend, when i see her i feel happy like a fkin creep. When the schools or colleges over i just balantly propose and get rejected for rejections sake. So, i would never have to think about what if i had proposed and stuff like that.

Also i found out i am not like the personality who are in a relationship, the one who approaches and impresses a girl, i dont have the social skills, no confidence in myself nor do i have the dressing sense. When i try to be all extrovert and talkative, i embarass myself and get cringed over years over that single incident.

I have seen my friend talking to a girl beluka, we met the same girl on the same day, but the other day she was all touchy touchy with my friend like they had known each other for years, . So, that really is a skill in itself.

I am more of a attachment kinda type, so it takes a long time, i talk to a girl for a long time, i am awkard at first and dont really like people who are different than me, if our views are similar, then i develop attachment.

Now girls who i have crush on, are like flowers or nature to me, i admire their beauty when i see them and dont want or expect anything from them, not even friendship.