New to the community, not the kink

Hello everyone. Just wanted to introduce myself while also asking some questions. My name is Fuzzy. I recently turned 30 for the 8th year in a row. (I am not taking it well that I am almost 40, lol). I discovered my love for feet when I was 16. My boyfriend at the time had no odor really of any kind, except for his feet. The smell was intoxicatingly arousing. Since him, however, I find it hard to be around dirty and smelly feet. So much so that I have made freshly cleaned feet a requirement for me to enjoy worshiping them as much as I originally did. I still get overly aroused from any and all thoughts relating to feet, but I can't get over the "dirty" side to it. Is this normal, or am I just weird when it comes to wanting them to be clean?