Finding a happy medium between all or nothing

As the title suggests.

Currently 180lbs, 27 female, 5”7, goal weight is maintaining around 145-155.

I’m having a hard time finding a balance between starving and falling into disordered eating patterns (a past problem) or allowing myself to enjoy life and not worry about food.

I feel like I have to eat nothing to lose any weight. But I have issues in the past with disordered eating patterns, so I try to eat mindfully instead of counting calories and macros to a T.

I strength train 3x a week, walk at least 15 mins daily and have a lightly active job where I’m on my feet for at least 4-5 hours a day.

Does anyone have any tips that changed things for them?