The Cornell 7

Something similar happened to me. Not going into detail because every time I ever have I’ve been bombarded with weirdos getting off to it and in my DMs with the grossest questions. Every app I open is talking about it, and all I can think about is all the shit I was told when I tried to tell people I didn’t want it, that I was begging for it to stop. I was underage (15) and getting fucked up of my own volition, and I know that doesn’t make it okay what happened to me but I still internalize the comments I see justifying what happened to her because she was underage and partying. I had so much proof and nobody believed me either.

It’s been almost 3 years since I cut myself and the urges are so fucking strong right now. I’ve been working a ton (I’m a nurse now) and just bedrotting when I’m off. When I’m off I have too many empty hours where the kids at school and I’m alone in the house with all the tools and supplies I could dream of. And the thing is I know cutting myself would work. Like it’s really effective at resetting my brain. I just hate this still bothers me. Every time I think it’s behind me there’s another news story that reminds me I was never safe and I never will be and neither will my daughter.