Would be nice if i could make pocket money with my art and models, but i dont even know if i'm are worth atleast 2$, let alone any amount.

you guys say that my art and models are nice, but i dont even know if the stuff i make are worth atleast 2$.

i wanted to make more art and models and improve quality, in hopes that any of my stuff will become worth something, hoping there are atleast 5 people joining my 2$ membership on patreon as a start, but with my current shitty financial situation, and the fact no one was joining on my Patreon, i cant just continue working on it when i should be busy trying to find ways to make ends meet, and like, I'm already uncertain about if i'm worth anything.

I still end up envying other artists and even the hyper-niche artists, you guys are worth something, people love your stuff, you're more talented, your quality kept up with the consistency, they are even comissioning you, joining your memberships for even 10$. I am worth nothing, i'm still stuck on mediocrity, maybe i'm not cut to be an artist, even as a hyper niche artist.

I cant take the risk of taking time to even make a single piece when i could use the same time trying to make ends meet on some informal work that's also hard to find, especially since the place i worked at closed down and i cant seek employment anymore cuz it's so fucking hard to get hired in my country, and i know that i cant even make a single dollar with my art and models, even after all these years.

what do i even do, like, should i even make a sekhmet porn model or some well-designed onlyfans-like character, or some funny comics and animations, or some well-done minecraft animated porn, or make decent quality models for portfolio, like, there's too many of these types of artists anyway, i'd just end up being another loss. i did try to be consistent, both on X, Pixiv, Reddit, etc, but it's not working as much, and any strategy i could think of after that is not even worth doing anymore, like, the strategies i come up are nothing but a copium disguised as help, or strategies that need half of the year of consistency just to even take off.

that cafe didnt had to close down, i dont even know how to make money apart from a job and pack development, i'm not even ready yet, my stuff's not even ready yet, i was busy trying to master the aspect of how i could make my works better so it becomes worth something without relying on copying others or being an another worthless art clone. this sucks.