How do you look yourself in the mirror

I got diagnosed with CPTSD and 4 months later Bipolar and Autism. All my life I was told it was anxiety and depression. Now it's there in writing. I am starting everything in my life from scratch college, money, job and relationships. I have the Atopic triad my whole life and now I have Dysautonomia. I have lost 33% of my body weight in less than 1.5 years. I have debt from not working and due to all my mental and physical health issues.

So how the fuck do I look in the mirror and not cry?