29F unlocked a new kink for myself

Hello there, been a while since I posted. I’ve been using my free time to start reading some books again. I kept seeing online about the book “Lights Out” and tbh it peaked my interest quickly. I know maybe this is just the pleasure it brought me while reading it, but at certain parts of the book i was touching myself, rubbing my clit through my pants grinding against my own hand. Some of the parts were so intense, I was laying there imagining the same thing happening to me. A man with a horror mask on, breaking into my house so he can have his way with me while I’m least expecting it. The sheer thrill alone would make my chest explode with desire. Especially the part where he had her sit down on his knife and made her ride it while he penetrated her anally with his fingers. The intimacy between the two of them.. it’s unlike anything I’ve ever heard or experienced it, and it’s been in my head nonstop. The thought of a man willing to hunt me down deep in the woods, no intention of actually harming me, but claiming me as his own as our bodies wrestle around on the ground. Somebody so obsessed that they would do anything to protect me but also know when I deserve to be punished and tamed like the filthy whore I am. Something like this is such a reach but to actually experience such lust and raw instinct..