I’m tired of being a woman in this world

I went to a bar tonight and this guy wouldn’t stop bothering me. At one point he comes up right behind me (one of my triggers) and I can feel him breathing on my neck. I tell him to get away from me, he says “I’m ordering a drink” I said there’s plenty of other places to order please leave me alone. He persisted while another man egged him on. I made a scene. I screamed at him to leave me the fuck alone. I screamed so many times for the bouncer who finally got him away from me. One guy starts defending him claiming he wasn’t doing anything wrong. Because harassing someone in 2026 isn’t wrong right.

As this was happening I had my third panic attack this week. I couldn’t breathe. I almost fainted in front of everyone. I don’t want to live in this world anymore where every day I’m scared of men. And no this didn’t come out of nowhere. I’m a SW so I have trauma related to them. Maybe I’ve been thinking about the Cornell situation too much. Maybe I overreacted. I don’t know anymore I just don’t want to be here