Rated R movies

As a kid I watched rated R movies and they didn't really phase me. It kind of just seemed like some skit or Hollywood every time I watched a rated R seen. Now as an adult graphic scenes hit way harder because I realize some of that stuff can literally happen in real life and my brain fills in the gaps. Sometimes I can't even watch fake graphic scenes because I have literally seen stuff like that in person. On screen it can look cool, but when you see stuff like death in real life it hits way harder.