I feel void of content, creativity, conversation. Floaty.

Not sure if this is the right sub for this but I figure I'm in good hands. I'm an average 21 year old male. Long haired, music loving reddit addict. For a long time, maybe since high school, i've been stuck in personality limbo. Other than robotically going through the motions to live, work, interact with others... I haven't felt like i've had any drive in me. Not sadness, just floating through the day. Personality too. I feel like I'm able to be fun and funny and loving with my girlfriend, but she really brings it out of me like it's hiding from everyone else. I'm known in my workplace as the guy who sits silently with headphones on all day. Little quips to existing conversations sometimes, but I would never start my own. I get lost in my head a lot. Sorry if this starts wandering... I do my job I wake up I dress myself and eat and drive and get the days shit done just quietly without a self.

Hell even my main interest, music, is directionless. I play bass, drums, guitar, but I don't have any creative energy to produce, only to listen. And even then I don't fixate on words. It's like waves of noise to me. Fuck I sound whiney.

I'm sorry if this is nonsense. I have trouble expressing stuff like this outside of bursts of thought. Thanks to anyone giving this time. PM me if you ever feel like this, maybe we can skype and bounce feelings off each other or something.