I have tried to many times to get hypnotized and it never worked? Can I never be hypnotized now that I am skeptical?

I have tried to get hypnotized at stage hypnotist shows and everytime I was totally willing but alittle nervous. It never worked everytime. I am skeptical now and I always will be because of my past with it. Does this mean I will never be hypnotized? My heart rate also goes way up when I try because I want it to work.

This will never change for me plus I can't clear my mind. Will these factors keep me from ever being hypnotized? Because its the same way everytime. I can't tell my mind otherwise, it doesn't work that way for me.

Also, it takes me 3 hours to fall asleep every night, how in hells name am I supposed to be THAT relaxed within 10 minutes? Idk I didn't think so but there maybe something about me that is unable to get hypnotized. They say its a natural thing and most people can but I have been disappointed every year at these shows.