What do you **hope** happened on Jan. 13?

One of the most rewarding things about this podcast has been how much I've learned about myself. I'm pretty much on the fence about who killed Hae, but for a long time, I've felt a noticeably tinge of negative feeling (disgust? anger? I'm not sure) whenever someone on this subreddit has said that they were fairly certain Adnan is guilty. I don't get that same feeling when someone claims they are certain of his innocence. Subconsciously, I want Adnan to have nothing to do with Hae's murder. Why do I feel this way? Well, this is what this thread is for.

I think that I want to believe Adnan primarily because I want to be able to trust in our basic human ability to read someone's character. From what I have heard in the podcast so far, I personally find Adnan to be likable and generally honest. The revelation in Episode 9 that he has apparently continued to exude "good guy" 15 years into his prison sentence solidified it for me. But beyond my personal response, everyone who knew Adnan seemed to have found his demeanor incompatible with that of a murderer. Perhaps I'm naive, I'm afraid that if we somehow get proof that Adnan really did murder Hae, I won't be able to look at any nice or charming person in quite the same light.

On the other hand, wanting to believe Adnan is innocent necessarily means that I'm wanting our justice system to have flaws so fatal that it can easily convict an innocent party. Believing Adnan means believing in the worst of prosecutors, Baltimore police investigations, judges. It may mean creating a villain out of Jay, a person who may have been capable of manipulating dozens of people around him for his own self-interest, a person who is still free to commit another atrocity. I'm not sure that I want to live in that world either.

TL;DR - Throwing away all of the evidence you know about and whatever conclusions those things have led you to, what do you hope happened that day in January? Obviously, someone was murdered here, and no outcome is going to be a totally good one, but what scenario would make you feel better about the world you live in? And why do you think you feel this way?