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simplesignman

Update on wifes first roll

Fucking awesome! Everything went amazing, no problems for her at all. This was one of the best things to ever happen in our marriage. We connected on a level that we needed to connect on, lately it has felt like we are in the same book but on different pages. This helped us a lot. I blacked out the living room windows, got out the LED strips and set up a good playlist. Very cozy and intimate, completely safe place. After the initial discomfort I watched my wife play around the house with glow sticks and she was just in pure wonderment of everything. It was adorable to watch her, not as a mother or wife, but as her being comfortable with herself and letting all the inner beauty come out. Went with a point for her and it was perfect, .15 for myself yet my roll was a little rougher due to me focusing on making hers good I didn't give my self the attention I needed before hand with hydration but that was dealt with quick. We had a huge open fire in the fireplace, tons of fuzzy blankets, fluffy couch and pillows, two wiener dogs and lots of starbursts, fruit and water. Started around 7 in the evening, lasted until about 12-1 before she was getting tired. Got up for a gnarly cafe breakfast and then back home for an entire saturday of cuddles and movies. We have both agreed that this needs to happen a few times a year, a summer and winter roll kinda thing. I have lost interest in doing this in big crowds or parties, while I have had a good time, this to me is what its all about and I am fine waiting every 6 months for this. Thanks you folks for the support and advice/encouragement.

I am very grateful for the experience with her. Much love all.

Posted Dec 7, 2014, 5:51 PM UTC

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tugsfordrugs•

I'm happy it went so well for you guys!

I really look forward to rolling with the person I get married too. I think that experience would be absolutely incredible.

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adventure-together•

From the wife's perspective... I can't say that there was one particular reason that made me change my mind about trying our wanting to do this. Over the last few months it has been brought up for different uses for those with ptsd. A couple times my husband was seeing how it would work in small doses with ptsd. I guess it's been chipping away at me subconsciously with my husband joking(at first) about having a weekend getaway and hearing positive experiences. The other part that really helped change my mind was knowing that my husband was not going to let anything bad happen to me, he researches every angle to be prepared and I trust him. Even though I wasn't 100 percent sure, I had enough confidence in my husband to where I felt good and okay with this adventure. I'm glad he brought it up and that we were able to do this together. It was an amazing experience! Everything was lifted off my shoulders, I had no worries and no filter. It was needed on so many different levels and I didn't even know it. Definitely open to making this a biannual adventure :-)

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ParkerZA•

How did she feel about the comedown?

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simplesignmanOP•

Not bad at all, I had my vape pen loaded with some BHO just for that reason and after a couple pulls she was on her way to sleep. I had a couple dabs and it was all over. We both woke up with a very light headache but that went away after breakfast, we didn't eat much that evening aside from some fruit. We did pre and post load and I think the headache had more to do with not eating than the molly. The after glow has been great for her, after talking this morning she is a fan and this will not be the last time.

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ronstoppable420•

I've heard that headaches may be associated with serotonin depletion but I may be wrong

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Bastionoflogic•

More likely an adulterant, but tough to say without a Mass spec readout

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simplesignmanOP•

Sadness, depression, agitation would be more inline with depletion. We got up, drank some water, ate some breakfast and have been great ever since. Depletion is a concern for sure, not really at the level we took but it can happen with higher doses and redosing. We had no redose and have been making sure 5-htp was added Saturday.

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fofofadii•

It's dehydration for me. I wake up with a headache, drink a ton of water, and the headache goes away.

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himpllx•

Congrats on the successful night! I did this with my girlfriend sort of spontaneously, just us two by the shore. I don't mean to sound corny but it truly was a magical night. We both had a green android, roughly .2 each.

That was close to a year and a half ago. We've done it a couple of times after that but I can't say it's been the same!

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simplesignmanOP•

This is gonna sound cheesy as fuck but in a way, its like we got a love refresher. This was, without a doubt my favorite roll ever. She has been by my side during my battle with PTSD and depression, its enough to wear anyone down. She got to see me relaxed and happy and I got to see her completely comfortable with no self doubt or worry. I have never felt this in-tune with my wife during the 15 years we have known each other. I know we could never replicate it, but there will be more adventures in the future, right now we are both just enjoying what we have in this moment of time, something I have not been able to do in a long time and what she deserves.

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Xevro•

Glad she enjoyed that, tbh how could you not, especially for the first couple of times, you really dive in.

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shrimp0MASTER•

Prior to the roll, did she have a negative image of MDMA? If yes, how did you convince her to roll with you?

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ntygby•

I was in a similar situation to OP, tbh nothing will change the mind of your SO until he/she tries it. You can let her read all the facts and experiences but for most people it's so ingrained in our minds that "drugs are bad" and MDMA is no better than Meth or Heroin. Then they try it and realize how amazing it is.

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shrimp0MASTER•

I guess I'll have to present her the statistics as well as my personal experience. Hopefully, she'll accept to roll with me, because I really think that MDMA has the potential to bring two people (who are already close together) even closer. I cross my fingers m8s.

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simplesignmanOP•

I can say that she has plenty of time to warm up to the idea of using it and has watched me over the last 4-5 months use it as a tool for PTSD in my own way. I never pushed it or really suggested it until she started to ask me questions, then if I recall, I made a joke about sending the kids away and having a night to ourselves and she was on board. Tried to fill her full of info but she said for me to handle it and she trusts me to make it go well. I made sure to let her know what the initial come up feels like and did my best to make her feel taken care of. It was fun noticing the build up, earlier in the day a few hours before as we are snagging supplies I mentioned to butterflies that always happen when I do a substance for the first time... she had them and for the first time in a long time so did I! I doubt we will branch out into anything else, not sure how she would do on acid or shrooms, I enjoy the fuck out of them but I am not sure she wants to walk in another plain of existence for 8 hours ;) I hope it comes together for you, I am so grateful this happened and hope others can enjoy something similar.

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simplesignmanOP•

I started to answer this but I don't want to speak for her, I will have her tell her reasons when she gets home tonight.

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throwaway56135yummy•

I'm not the guy who asked but please do, I'm genuinely curious

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mdmawesome1•

Same!

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simplesignmanOP•

Here is her comment she left about why she decided to do it, hope it helps.

From the wife's perspective... I can't say that there was one particular reason that made me change my mind about trying our wanting to do this. Over the last few months it has been brought up for different uses for those with ptsd. A couple times my husband was seeing how it would work in small doses with ptsd. I guess it's been chipping away at me subconsciously with my husband joking(at first) about having a weekend getaway and hearing positive experiences. The other part that really helped change my mind was knowing that my husband was not going to let anything bad happen to me, he researches every angle to be prepared and I trust him. Even though I wasn't 100 percent sure, I had enough confidence in my husband to where I felt good and okay with this adventure. I'm glad he brought it up and that we were able to do this together. It was an amazing experience! Everything was lifted off my shoulders, I had no worries and no filter. It was needed on so many different levels and I didn't even know it. Definitely open to making this a biannual adventure :-)

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laxing22•

My GF and I had a very similar first time and I am fine with all the future ones being just us. Next time add a viagra for an even better night.

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