Yay more issues.

So after 3 or 4 back-to-back pregnancies and one baby to show for it all, my thyroid is saying "LOL fuck this shit." I was just diagnosed with hyperthyroidism at about 6 weeks postpartum. I'm a wreck. To be fair, I've been wondering what the hell was wrong with me and I've been having my issues brushed aside as "Oh, well that's just what it's like to have a newborn! Tee Hee!"

I had a relative come help with the baby boy since this and postpartum depression is destroying me. I managed to get a doctor's appointment to get on medication, which is good... but in the meantime the baby actually exhausted the help, and now it's just my husband and me.

The help was a bit ridiculous. I'd wake up and get him shoved immediately in my arms after about one sip of coffee, so I'd get no breakfast or lunch while the help was tut-tutting me for not eating/taking care of myself, and then I'd fall asleep again face-down in the middle of my dinner. All while I'm trying to pump every couple hours or so to get my supply up.

When my husband got home, I'd go to "sleep" so that I would get four or five hours in, but I'd have to wake up every 2 hours until his turn to be sure that husband didn't fall asleep while holding him on the couch again, or that he wasn't ignoring him entirely while playing video games.

My son is The Baby That Never Sleeps. He would rather thrash his body from left to right and rub his face for hours on end while whining and growling rather than do anything productive. We're lucky if he sleeps for 1-2 hours at a time.

He's almost 2 months old. Wtf. Why did I do this to myself? Please tell me it gets better.