I don't know if I have a problem

I don't know if I have an addiction to porn, I would say that I masturbate as much as any regular person. I suppose maybe once a day or so, nothing that has ever alarmed me to the fact I might be an addict or whatever. Nothing that strikes me as unusual in any way in comparison to any of my friends ect.

The issue I have is that something inside me tells me that porn is just wrong. I'm not religious, quite the opposite but the material I watch is in my opinion morally wrong. I don't watch child porn or bestiality or anything on that level but I still feel an inner discontent with the fact that I am aroused by such illicit stuff. But like most of the stuff on the front page of any tube site is so.. lewd? I feel so ashamed of myself after watching porn, like if any of my family knew what gets me off... If they saw my browsing history.. I want to be a better man

So I wanted to restore some pride in myself by attempting to abstain from it. I went 5 days and then binged for 2 days... It's extremely hard and for me it's the physical sensation in the balls that I find most distressing as opposed to the porn, it so uncomfortable that I could PMO just for that sake of it without thinking about anything sexual in order to find release.

I feel porn is killing me inside slowly, I don't want to be a slave to my desire and I will try again to make 30 days. The main reasons I am interested in this is because I want to gain confidence in myself by resisting the urges and that I do not want to be attracted or aroused by the things I am. Like anal and cum swallowing and all this nasty shit, I PMO to it every time! WHY! Why do I have a sick mind? I don't want to exist like this..

Any insight is appreciated.