I'm new here. Here's my story.

Hello everyone, I come here to get support and tell my story. I'm only 12 now but will be 13 soon. I think all my life I had some doubts but like the rest of us I pushed it aside. I felt left out when I never got presents on Christmas or never had a birthday. Eventually I started to lead a double life. Skyping so called "worldly" people and watching whatever I want on the Internet without my parents knowing. I enjoyed myself. The guilt went away eventually. Soon I started to rethink things. I decided that I wasn't sure about the Jehovah's Witnesses. I met someone too who helped clear my mind. Then I was sure. I need to leave. I was a youth in a cult. I started raging inside all the time. So I decided to spread seeds of doubt to my friends. This caught up with me though. I think I may have came off as apostate because my parents confronted me and said I got a call from a friend about it. I made that friend swear he would never tell I wanted to leave and he broke his oath. I could only trust one friend and that's all. My parents know now. There are making me study a lot now. I plan on disproving the 144000 to my parents and leaving. That way I will have a reason and won't look bad. Please comment I need a lot of support!