I don't remember anything before the age of fourteen

I've always been different. Not in the sweet "oh, that's so fun way" but in a real way. I don't remember anything before the age of fourteen where I was in a car crash. This is things my mom has told me happened, and it completely freaked me out.

I'm currently 20 years old and just became a senior in college. You can call me Melanie if you want to ask me something in the comments.

After my mothers dead a couple weeks ago she has left this book about me. I don't know why I'm posting it on here, I guess I'm just in need of closure. It's also very important to know that I was adopted at the age of three, and that I, as I said, don't remember any of the events in the book. I have not been able to find any records of my biological parents, other than the fact that my father is unknown, my mother seemed to be between fourteen and seventeen, and that she is known by the staff as Martina, though it is very unlikely that it's her real name. I have four adoptive siblings (we were a pretty big family)

And I guess that's all you need to know. If any of you can explain these events to me I would be very happy. I will also only touch the oldest pages right now as the book continues until I'm eighteen.

Well this is the book she gave me.

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28/6/98 We just adopted our second child. As she has no legal name, and the one the staff gave her is pretty weird (Iris) we decided to name her Melanie. Melanie is a playful child, very sweet, but kind of violent (she has scratched Michael a couple times) but nothing really to worry about.

She has very bad speaking skills (which Michael did to when we adopted him) but can say hi and ask for food. Other than that she babbles in some kind of baby-language.

30/06/98

It seems like Melanie has got her self an imaginary friend. She calls him by the name of Marty. Melanie will often babble with him. The reason i know that i know his name is Marty is because she mentions it some times. Melanie is a very sweet kid, but we haven't taught her to stop scratching Michael yet. She stops when we come in, but then just continues when she can't see us anymore.

Other than this weird behavior Melanie doesn't do anything that concerns us.

11/7/98

Nothing has really happened with Melanie recently except one incident with one of the adults from the orphanage, where Melanie would just jump right at her and start scratching. I told her to stop and she did, weirdly staring at the caretaker and then at me.

I'm actually starting to get quite concerned.

28/7/98

We had been on vacation for a couple days in Spain, when i found Melanie sitting at the pool trying to drown a poor butterfly, squishing it between her fingers. When I came she looked at me, smiled, and gave me the butterfly, almost waiting for me to be proud of her. I of course got mad at her, and tried to explain to her, that she couldn't just go around drowning butterflies. It took a little time for her to understand, but then she said, in a full word sentence.

"But the butterflies drowned me"

She had a look of worry on her face, then smiled, and ran over to play with "Marty and Tina"

She started babbling in the sandbox, while filling a bucket with sand.

10/08/98

We just came home from our holiday yesterday. Melanie has stopped scratching Michael, which he is very grateful for and she is even allowing him to play with Marty and Tina. Michael enjoys getting closer to her sister very much.

On Monday we are visiting the kindergarten Melanie is gonna go in. Melanie also wrote a mail to me, which is very weird because, well, she's three years old. I'm pretty sure it's some prank she got Michael to write down.

"The shadows love you, mommy" and was sent from the computer Melanie has in her room.

18/08/98

Today was Melanie's first day in kindergarten, and what happened can be best described as disturbing. The staff said they found her whispering in the corner, weird words and sounds. The other kids, as kids do, started teasing her.

She then turned around and pushed one of the bully's, put her food on him and whispered, "Do not look in your closet, if you wanna live. I heard Marty say he was gonna be there tonight, and he is gonna eat your eyes"

The staff described her as looking very threatening, and then a few seconds later she changed to a happy smile, and ran over and started playing with her toys, while babbling with Tina and Marty.

29/08/98

The last couple of days has went pretty well. Michael and Melanie has become closer, and he is even starting to speak in her language. Though he has admitted to me he cannot see Marty or Tina, but he is afraid that if he tells Melanie "the shadows are gonna eat his skin"

13/09/98

Today Melanie was told to draw in school, and what she drew absolutely terrified me. It was a picture of us, our family. Me, Phillip(Phillip is my husband) Michael and her. In the background there were two other figures, she told me was Tina and Marty. Our faces were decorated with big smiles except for one, Phillip.

"That's because he is sad, that he is gonna die soon"

Next to me there was a pull of blood with a sad face on, and tears.

"That's because you removed Wendy before she could live"

23/09/98

Today it was Michaels birthday. Melanie had made food for him, Marty, Tina, me, and her, but not Phillip. When I asked her why she had only made the table for us, she said the following:

"Daddy wants to be invisible and invisible people don't get cake"

10/10/98

Melanie can almost speak as good as Michael, which is quite amazing as she could only babble when we had her. The only problem is she doesn't really wanna let go of her baby-language. She still babbles with Marty and Tina.

She also is having a really hard time letting go of her soother. She doesn't cry, which she never have, but yesterday she bit me so hard it started bleeding and you could see the bone. A kid should not be able to do that, but she said she got "the powers of the shadows"

21/10/98

Today I adopted a little sister for Michael and Melanie. I've named her Anna, she is a couple months old, and was at the same orphanage as Melanie. Melanie has behaved very nicely and was even there to welcome Anna with me and Michael.

I don't think it will be a problem. Maybe if Melanie gets some more responsibility she will stop babbling with Marty and all her other weird friends.

Maybe it's just the trauma of losing her mother at such a vulnerable age that makes her act like this.

31/10/98

Michael was out trick or treating when Melanie suddenly went missing. We looked all over for her. A couple hours later we found out that she had crawled out the window and followed Michael, because Tina had convinced her to do so.

She had walked about three miles, running from bush to bush without him noticing her. Sometimes you really don't know the limit of sibling love.

06/11/98

I thought Melanie was over her crazystate but clearly she is not, and I'm calling a therapist over this instant. I woke up around 3 AM to the sound of water pouring in the bathtub (Me, my husband, and Melanie lives on the first floor while Anna and Michael lives on the second) and then the sound of someone sobbing. I ran upstairs thinking that maybe Anna needed some food.

The lights in the bathroom were turned on, and there Melanie stood smiling, while watching the scolding hot water cover Anna, while she just kept on screaming.

I ran over and pulled up Anna, and I of course were furious with Melanie. Melanie stared at me for a minute, then looked down at the ground.

"That's how Wendy told me the abortion felt"

She then walked back to bed and fell asleep instantly.

07/11/98

Melanie just talked with the therapist, and he says that there is nothing wrong with her, and she was just sleepwalking.

I convinced him to talk to her a couple more times to see if his opinion changed.

24/11/98

Melanie has started talking with Anna. They speak in the same so called language as Melanie does with Marty and Tina. They seem to actually understand each other.

29/11/98

Today Melanie started crying in the middle of the night. She was screaming and yelling. I ran up to her and tried to get her to relax. She kept repeating a sentence.

"Tomorrow is the day he is too sad"

30/11/98

Today Phillip killed himself. There had been no warning whatsoever, and we miss him so very much. Michael has cried the entire day. While Melanie sat in her room yelling at Marty and Tina for "taking him with them"

We haven't been able to find a diagnose for Melanie, as she seem normal at most times.

02/12/98

Michael woke me up at 5 AM, to show me something weird. I saw Melanie pulling everything out of the fridge and eating it. We had to forcefully pull her away. She halso ate all the chocolate calendars. After she had completely emptied the fridge, she started eating butter and ketchup.

25/12/98

Today it's Christmas, and after all the things with Phillip I really hoped that Melanie would start acting like a normal kid, and just enjoy Christmas. But she didn't. She had to ruin it.

She started talking to my mother about how I had an abortion when I was nineteen and now Wendy couldn't live, and that I didn't tell her about, because I was afraid she was gonna force me to keep it.

I locked Melanie in her room, just straight up pulled her up, and sat her on a chair. I just couldn't take anymore bullshit.

02/01/99

Today it's Melanie's birthday. She's still mad at me after the incident at Christmas. She haven't stopped talking about Wendy. She just won't. Not even in therapy, not fucking ever.

I can't take it anymore.

??/??/??

You need to stop being rude to Iris. It makes her upset, and i dont like it. Do you wanna end in the closet and sing with me and Wendy?

13/01/99

I'm scared.

When I woke up this morning there was an entry in my diary, Melanie's diary. Who wrote this? The only one old enough to write this is Michael but why would he do that? That leaves Melanie and Anna. But Melanie can't even spell her own name.

This is fucked up. This is so fucked up.

I think we should move.

28/02/99

Today we officially moved to our new house in Toronto. It was a hard move, because Anna was very sick and was vomiting a lot, Michael was crying over losing the house that had been his only connection to his father. But Melanie was happy, clapping in her hands, and laughing.

She haven't mentioned Wendy a single time in the entire car ride. She just seemed like a normal kid, and I've started to remember how much I love her. Maybe she just needed some change, I mean her life haven't been that stable the time she has been with us.

03/03/99

Today Melanie started crying because she couldn't find Tina. She told me that her, Marty, and Anna had searched for him the entire day. I playfully asked her if they had asked Michael to help them.

"No, because he took her"

05/03/99

Today, after a lot of pressure from Melanie I searched Michaels room. He had taken one of her barbies, and I instantly felt better. What if Marty alsowas a name she had for one of her barbies. I bowed down in front of her and gave her the doll. I then asked her if this was Tina.

"No, that's just were Tina lives mom"

"How can she live inside the doll"

"It helps her move"

Melanie then grabbed the doll out of my hands, and ran into her room, laughing.

21/03/99

Today I was woken by Melanie. She was sitting on me, staring at me, smiling and laughing. She then grabbed my neck and looked me deep in my eyes.

"Why didn't you love me" she sobbed, still frozen in her smile "why, won't you..."

She then fell asleep next to me.

22/03/99

I asked Melanie about what she meant last night, and she says to me that I would get mad if she told me. I promised her I wouldn't. She takes a deep breath and then turns around.

"Sometimes Wendy needs my body. It's when she forgets the taste of chocolate, or just wanna try and breathe again. And she told me she was just gonna go watch television, and I said "okay but you only watch television" and she said yeah, but she lied. Luckily Marty was there and told her to go into the closet again, but Marty don't like liars so now I don't play with Wendy anymore"

31/04/99

Today I introduced Melanie to my boyfriend Aaron. She was really nice to him and they instantly had a connection. He, himself have a girl, age fourteen, he had in his last marriage so he didn't mind that I had children. His daughter, Rachel is very sweet, and very beautiful, and she is going to live at our house every two weeks when he moves in.

Melanie didn't like Rachel, but I'm sure she'll get used to the idea. I know it's a big step, but I need a man in the house.

Then Melanie will just have to accept it.

09/05/99

I'm so stupid. I knew this was gonna happen. How could I think I could just go off and bring home a boyfriend and his new daughter, and then we could be a big happy family.

Rachel doesn't want to live here anymore. The poor girl were terrified out of her mind of Melanie. Before she left to go stay with a friend, she turned around and yelled that Marty could keep her house. I don't care that Melanie is a four year old.

For now on, I will not allow her to speak to Marty, or Wendy, or whatever the fuck she calls her imaginary friends. I'm so fucking tired of how she does all these insane things.

12/05/99

I told Melanie she couldn't see Marty or Tina anymore. She started crying and yelling like it was hurting on her. I just thought she was acting out. Until it didn't stop. For an entire hour I would hear screams, terrible screams, like she was in horrible pain.

I finally ran into her room and I found her with blood on her hands, deep scratchmarks in her arms and throat, and a giant pool of blonde hair in front of her.

"Marty don't wanna leave"

And then I saw her get dragged across the floor, while trying to grab her bed. I called the police and they just thought I was crazy and she had hurt herself. As i am speaking she is in the hospital for a few broken bones.

13/05/99

I refuse to believe that Melanie hurt herself. I saw what happened. How the fuck would my daughter be able to drag herself across the floor while begging herself to stop.

I haven't told her anything. Not to stop seeing Marty or something else. I haven't told anyone. Since I lost Philip I haven't had anyone. I'm hardly on speaking foot with my mother, my father has passed, and my only sibling is in France with her fiancée and a new cellphone number.

I don't know what to do, other than get in contact with Melanie's biological mother.

22/05/99

I've got a sitter to watch Anna and Michael. I brought Melanie in case she looks like her mother or something. It was a long drive from Toronto back to Pensylvania and I can't shake off the feeling that I just came home. I'm in the hotel right now, while Melanie is playing on her Nintendo. She's left handed so it doesn't matter that her right is broken.

We made our first visit to the orphanage talking with a nice lady called Olivia that seemed to be in the end of her twenties, who led us to an middleaged man, Jerold that seemed to recognize Melanie. He called her by the name of Iris. Melanie clearly recognized him to and ran over to hug him smiling and laughing.

I asked him, after they had greeted each other about her mother. This is what he said (i took notes)

"Well, her name was.. Eh... Martina, and she looked very sick and very young to be a mother. She was crying and coughing a lot. Poor thing hadn't eaten for days, we gave her some eh... chocolate chip cookies, she ate a lot I can tell you. She looked very long, between fourteen and seventeen, my best guess would be fifteen. Iris was around two years old. She was very dirty, probably bum. I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't make it the night"

24/5/99

We have asked some locals about Martina. The girl was smart enough to cover herself, so her haircolor is unknown. She had green eyes which one of the other workers at the orphanage told me. So basically I'm looking for a girl, in a big city, between fifteen and eighteen, homeless, with green eyes, that is very sick.

Boy is this gonna be easy.

Melanie played with Marty and Tina today. It still terrifies me seeing her running around with the thing that broke her leg, and sat on top of me.

??/??/??

I hate you.

25/05/99

There has been another message in my book, even though I'm keeping it on the top shelf where there is no possible way Melanie could reach it. Melanie can't even spell. But that Marty thing can, and it's gonna get me.

It's gotten to the point where I'm terrified of my own daughter. I don't even walk into her room, when she talks with Marty anymore, because I'm afraid he is gonna jump at me.

I spoke to Aaron today. He had talked with Rachel and convinced her it was just her imagination, and they will take over sitting Anna and Michael, until me and Melanie is coming home.

26/05/99

Rachel called me today because Anna had started babbling with someone called Wendy. I told her to take Michael and Anna and run over to her dads house.

27/05/99

I thought Wendy was gone for good. After my attack I really thought she would be gone. I thought Marty had taken care of her, and put her into the fucking closet or something.

But no, now she's back and hanging out with Anna because why the fuck not. I'm sorry. I just feel guilty.

Because she isn't lying, and I don't know how she knows, but she isn't lying.

28/05/99

I talked to Melanie about Wendy. She said that Marty had told her that he had gone rid of her. I tried to convince her to talk to Marty, but she told me that Marty was angry with me, and didn't want to hear anything about me.

30/05/99

Yesterday Melanie walked into my room and stared at me with puppy eyes. I was busy researching and I asked her what it was. She looked down at the ground, like she was about to cry.

"I have a message from my mommy"

I laughed.

"Melanie, you know I'm your mommy"

"No" she shaked her head slowly, while trying not to cry "you are my mother. Do you want me to deliver the message"

"Yes"

"You are stupid whore" she looked at me. Tears started to fall down her face. "Mommy told me to say it"

She then ran away.

02/06/99

Today we returned from our little "trip" I picked up Anna and Michael. Rachel still didn't wanna go back to that godforsaken house, but Aaron that is very brave followed me and the kids over there.

Rachel had apparently duck taped the closet. Not a thing would be able to open it, and especially not some stupid ghost. I haven't been able to find Martina, which I didn't expect as there are a lot of people in the town that I live in.

It's kinda weird how she is just... Forgotten. Nobody knew her, nobody remembered her, no one even knew what she looked like.

05/06/99

I'm hiding. Marty is not a joke. I was getting to sleep last night, when I saw a shadowy figure standing in the corner of her room, with its arms folded around her.

Melanie had her eyes closed as she was sleeping. The second the thing saw me it attacked me. I don't know how, but it did. I was thrown against the wall. Hit it with painful speed, and fell together like a puppet, just waiting for his next attack.

It spread its "arms" out. Tons of golden hair blocking the door, and grabbing my throat, holding on to it tightly, while I tried to scream or just breathe. Then I heard a voice, Melanie's voice.

"Mommy, no"

And the... Thing finally let go of me. I ran out and shut the door. I then ran outside and I'm hiding in the treehouse, just waiting for it to find me.

06/06/99

Whatever it was its gone now. I fell asleep in the treehouse. Michael found me this morning. My throat still hurts after that thing attacked me. I don't really know what to do. I wanna protect Melanie, but some dark place in me just wanna leave her and Anna.

How easy would it be? Just to let go of it all, start a new life with a Aaron and his daughter, a normal one.

How i cringe for a normal life, with no monsters and no Marty. Somedays i just wanna leave her to die somewhere. Is that weird? Shouldn't you love your children no matter what?

I think that's what you're supposed to.

12/06/99

We are moving over to Aaron. Rachel doesn't even wanna look at our own house. They live just down the street, so it's not like it is gonna be a hard move.

Melanie were packing her things, when I threw the Tina Barbie out. I didn't really think, I just did it. We are moving tomorrow.

13/06/99

Rachel refused to share room with either Anna or Melanie, so she had to share a room with Michael. She wasn't happy about it but she didn't do anything to stop it.

15/06/99

I'm at the police station right now. Why did I throw that doll out? I knew it would have backfired. I should have straight up burned the thing. I don't know how this happened...

But I woke up in the middle of the night of Rachel screaming. She had a doll, the Tina doll, in her eyes, the entire fleets were inside of it. It was a horrific sight. They are questioning Melanie right now, and for once she is not sounding like a nutjob.

Something is very wrong.

21/06/99

Sorry I haven't written anything in you but it's been a really hard time. Aaron has been arrested and Rachel has been send to live with her mother. My life is crashing down because of that stupid thing. Maybe I didn't love Aaron but he was... Somebody. Why won't this thing allow me to be happy...

23/06/99

We have moved back the street to our old house. We couldn't stay in Aaron's anymore, and they won't provide us with a new one of the reason we still have that godforsaken house. Even though I don't think it's gonna change anything, I still felt safer with Aaron.

I can't tell them it was Melanie's doll that did it... They would just think that I'm a nutjob and put me on mental and take my children away. But I still feel awful knowing that Aaron is going to prison for something he didn't do. He was a great friend.

Melanie has been quiet. No Marty, no Tina, no Wendy, and best of all, no supernatural occurrences.

27/06/99

How wrong was i?

It can't just go away. It just needed to gain some strength. And now it apparently has a new friend. No creative name this time though.

Him. It's called him. Just three letters never changing, not even when she try to say sentences where it should be he. But I guess, there is no logic in a ghost.

Marty and Tina does not like Him, which I guess should make Him on my team. Melanie has told me that Him is evil. That he hurts Marty and Tina, and pulls in her hair. I told her to describe him to me.

She gave me a drawing.

It was this man. He was very tall, which you could see, because he was standing next to the giant closet Melanie had in her room. I would say about 7' feet.

He looked rich, he's eyes were striking blue, and he had brown hair, covering his almost bald head. He was skinny, but strong enough to look muscular. I recognized him immediately, and it made my heart skip a beat.

It was Aaron.

29/06/99

Aaron has passed. He was in a prison fight, and another inmate overpowered him, and choked him to dead. I'm not gonna tell the kids. I'm just gonna tell him he got lifetime.

They'll never find out.

03/07/99

They told Rachel. I think at least. She was in tears, absolutely devastated. She think it's my fault. That I somehow made him die in prison. But if it's Melanie's fault, was it also her fault that Philip died. Well, it didn't seem to touch her at all.

Maybe she is some kind of demon, sent to destroy and ruin my life. But at times she's so nice.

11/07/99

I'm moving out of this godforsaken country. Right now, right here.

12/07/99

I haven't slept the entire night. Soon we are gonna be on the coast, where we will fly to France, to go live with my sister Kate and her fiancée Leonard. I haven't seen Kate since she was barely 19, which I'll admit is a long time ago. She is my only sister and I hope she will welcome me in her home.

I got her phonenumber from mom. Apparently she has twins, a son and a daughter, a year older than Melanie. Kate was never one to settle, always happy and irresponsible, living in her own fun little bubble. I never expected her to be a parent, but well she is twentynine so she can do whatever she wanna do.

I'm tired, really. We have only stopped once to get some food from the 7-eleven store. Melanie and Anna is sleeping, and Michael is finally starting to rest after I gave him som candy, and let him choose three sodas for the entire ride.

If we drive without break for three more hours we should be at the airport. That... Thing can't follow me so far, can it? Well it's worth a shot, because that thing aren't taking Melanie or Anna.

Maybe it will be good for Melanie, getting to know the twins. I catched that there names was Korey and Allie. Pretty names... I didn't even know you could be named Korey with a K or just Allie. But my sister has always been a bit special, and I were actually worried that they would be more fucked up.

17/07/99

We have finally arrived at Kate's house. Kate looks a lot different, that she used to. She had got her long hair cut shoulderlength, have started to get wrinkles, but still looks young and fresh. The southern part of France is very beautiful.

Korey and Allie look like their mother, both blonde with big doughy brown eyes. Korey and Melanie is beginning to become friends, while Allie is kind of the third wheel.

19/07/99

Korey and Melanie was out playing today. They were so cute, all running around in the big garden. I feel a lot safer. Maybe her imaginary friends have given up on her, and we can continue to have a wonderful life.

28/08/99

Today my sister looked very worried. She told me it was about Melanie and Allie. I was tired after Anna's birthday party we had hosted earlier, so I asked her if it could wait. She said no.

She looked absolutely worried which my sister normally isn't. She told me something that I made shouldn't have noticed. Maybe should have just laughed of.

"Allie don't wanna sleep in Melanie's room because she is scared of the closet"

29/08/99

Korey have moved in with Melanie. They are really close, even though they have barely known each other a month. As it seems safe in France I'm considering getting a new house, of course close to Kate's house as I don't wanna break the little couple up.

02/09/99

We will never be safe.

Reasently I went to check on Melanie and Korey to see if they were sleeping. Sometimes Melanie can't sleep and wakes up at weird times. When I came in, the closet door was open, and out of it was dripping a liquid. I just thought that maybe the roof was leaking.

I went over to open the door entirely. There was hanging what I can best describe as a puppet, but its skin was hot. There was a rope around its neck, and when I saw the brown eyes I screamed. I ran over and quickly turned on the lights.

Written over Allies head was:

You will never be safe

04/09/99

Kate was heartbroken. She haven't left her room for two straight days. She aren't kicking us out though, as she think it would be hard for Korey to lose Melanie as they are best friends. Leonard is the only one taking care of Korey which you would think was pretty hard, considering he just lost his twinsister.

But it isn't. Korey have done nothing but play with Melanie. He have only cried once because of the shock, but other than that, he is only thinking about Melanie. They go everywhere together, they are unbreakable.

Almost like they were twins

08/09/99

I found a giant scar on both Korey and Melanie's hands. The wound looks fresh. I asked Melanie about it and she told me this.

"That's when we became one"

11/09/99

Kate has gone into therapy. She is paranoid all the time, and don't want Korey leaving the house, in fear that whatever killed Allie is gonna get him too. She has barricated both doors, and he isn't even allowed in the garden anymore.

We were at Allies funeral today. Melanie and Korey didn't show up as they were busy chasing each other.

Leonard is holding up a facade for Korey, but it is easy to see they both cry each night.

15/09/99

I have found a house for us to move into. It is just down the street, and it is just down the street from where Kate lives, so Melanie can go visit Korey whenever she wants to.

I feel like a burden for Kate, and I can't wait to move out.

04/10/99

Today we first sat foot in our new house. It needed a lot of cleaning, but I think it will work out. The kids have to share a room. We bought the house without furniture but someone must have misunderstood something, because in the room, the kids were supposed to live in there are a giant closet.

07/10/99

I've tried removing the closet, but I can't. It is way too heavy. They start in school later in Europe than in the Toronto, so Michael is only a fourth grader, and Melanie isn't even starting in school before she is six.

We have put the beds up, and tonight we are sleeping for the very first time in the new house.

08/10/99

Tonight Michael came into me to sleep, because he was afraid of the closet. I told him that he was way to old to be afraid of closets. He told me that someone was starring at him. In disbelief I went into the room.

The closet was slightly open and pointed at me, was a brown eye.

09/10/99

Anna and Michael is sleeping in my room for the time. I've ordered someone to remove the closet, and they will come in a week. I can't wait. Melanie played with Korey today.

13/10/99

Kate called me last night sobbing into the phone. Korey is missing. He wasn't in his room, or anywhere in the house. She even had searched the entire neighborhood. Kate was devastated.

I went to ask Melanie if she had seen Korey, but I couldn't find her.

14/10/99

Police has begun searching for Melanie and Korey. I hope Korey is okay, because I'm afraid what Kate is gonna do if he isn't. She have already lost Allie, this will break her. Every time I talk to her it is as if she is falling deeper and deeper into her hole of insanity.

She still goes to her therapist though with depression, so I need to trust he is keeping an eye on her. It still hurts me terribly seeing my always happy sister go through this.

16/10/99

They have removed the closet. I don't see how it matters anymore.

23/04/00

Korey and Melanie has returned home! I am so happy. I thought I had lost her. Melanie just showed up at my doorstep whit Korey in her hand. She looked like she had done well, and wasn't even hungry, when I offered her, her favourite cookies.

She refuses to say what happened on her little trip, but insist that she wasn't kidnapped or hurt in anyway. Kate has told me that Korey tells him the same. Kate is so happy, to have him back.

29/04/00

I've given Melanie a lot of time to tell me, but she isn't saying anything. Kate don't want Korey to be around Melanie anymore. I understand her. She is terrified.

Something weird happened. The closet came back. When I came home from work I saw it standing in Melanie's room. Melanie misses Korey. I hope she doesn't do anything stupid.

02/05/00

We are moving out of the country. Melanie tried to abduct Korey again. We just went down to 7eleven for supplies. Michael bought a coke, and I allowed Melanie to have some juice. She picked one with orange and raspberry. That can't hurt her, right?

Kate don't ever wanna see me again. She really fears for Koreys safety, and I understand her. Melanie is dangerous, but I still love the kid.

We are going to Germany. I don't know anyone there, but because I was born I Spain, I can live anywhere in Europe that I want. We are gonna live a isolated place. I don't want Melanie coming in contact with anyone that she could hurt. The mountains sounds great.

08/05/00

New house again. It's quite beautiful. I'm happy I still have Phillips money from his company. Melanie likes the new house. She immediately ran out to play in the garden with Anna. Michael likes that he has his own room.

23/07/02

After nothing have happened with Melanie for over two years, my boyfriend William proposed to me, and we are getting married soon. Melanie likes William, and I think she is over her crazystate. Maybe she just needed to get far away.

Melanie has also gotten really good at German.

02/10/03

I adopted the twins today. Tiffany and Joey. They are really sweet, and only six months old.

16/02/03

Why did this have to happen. Today Melanie asked me if she could have a visitor. Melanie doesn't usually bring friends home from school, so I of course said yes, hoping that Melanie would fall in with them. The other kids usually don't play with her, because of her weird accents.

She came home. Knocked on the door, and said with a huge smile on her face.

"Mom, this is Marty"

18/02/03

Everything is back. She is even speaking the language again. I thought that, now that she is eight years old, she would change. I thought if I removed the country and Korey she would change. But all this time she had just been one, big, ticking, timebomb.

Marty "left" at 4 PM. I didn't allow him to eat dinner with us, even though it made Melanie quite upset.

22/02/03

I've never had twins before so maybe this is normal, but Joey and Tiffany have started communicating in the same babylanguage that Melanie used to communicate with Anna. It's not just a baby language it is exactly the same. All the words are words I've heard Melanie use while talking with Marty and Tina. I recognize everyone.

William tells me that I am just being paranoid and are overreacting because I am afraid they are gonna end up like Melanie.

25/02/03

Today I heard Tiffany say Marty for the first time..

30/02/03

Melanie has a friend. A real one, actually. His name is Jason. He seems like a pretty normal kid, and they've been playing all afternoon.

03/03/03

Kate called me about Korey today. He is going crazy. He had walked into the closet while whispering Allie. When she asked who Allie was he simply answered:

"Someone I don't remember"

05/03/03

The situation with Korey is getting worse. He has been walking around the entire night saying things like "why don't I remember her" and "Who is Allie"

Kate is putting him into therapy.

08/03/03

A new cut on Melanies hand. It was deeper than the first one, and on the other hand. I checked Anna, Tiffany, Joey, and Michael. Heck, i even checked William. They didn't have a scar looking like that.

09/03/03

Jasons mother called me furiously today. She had discovered a giant scar on the middle of Jason's hand. He had tried to cover it, wearing long sleeves, but he she had discovered it while he was getting out of the shower. I told her that made he had cut himself.

After she had calmed down Jason's mother excused, and told me that it was probably the case, being that Jason was a wild child, and it wasn't the first time he had come home with a scar.