I'm so sick of dating

I don't want to do it anymore. I want a relationship more than I want anything else. It just seems to happen so easily for other women. I don't know how they do it. I don't know what the secret is to getting a man to stick around. I've been single for over 2 years, and until last month, not a single guy I had dated in those 2 years wanted me to be his girlfriend. Since I moved 3 weeks ago, I've been out with 5 new guys. 2 of them I didn't want to see again for a variety of reasons, one didn't want to see me again, and the one I went out with tonight I can tell I'm never going to hear from again. That leaves one more, tomorrow night is our 4th date. But that doesn't really mean anything. He could decide at any time he doesn't want to see me again. He could decide, like most guys I've dated, that he likes me enough to sleep with me but not enough to make me his girlfriend. He could suddenly ghost or fade on me.

It just seems so pointless sometimes. He's a nice guy and it's exciting to get as far as I have with him, but 4 dates is pretty meaningless. I have friends living with their boyfriends, I have friends planning weddings. Here I am wondering if a guy is still going to be in my life at the end of this month. I'm also wondering how to get through these weddings as a single woman.

My plan was to date nonstop until I found a boyfriend, but it's starting to seem like a waste of time.