[Story] Feel hopeless, cold use some advice/direction/a friend.

Hey, I don't know if it's the right place for this, and if it isn't would you kindly let me know so I could post it at a more appropriate place, that would be great. I'm not the greatest writer, so I'm sorry if this are a little jumbled or don't make sense.

I'm 22 years old, living at home. I fee like I've really screwed up my life, and have many times felt like just ending it. I think I'm depressed, but I've never been to a doctor about it, so who knows. I know I'm always feeling tired, I find it really hard to get out of bed in the mornings and.. just feel hopeless in general. I'm scared of seeing a doctor, but I know I probably should.

In highschool, I was a huge slacker. I did the bare minimum, didn't take the "hard courses", I took the easy way to graduation and spent my time playing video games and going out with friends. (Almost) everyone in my extended family went to university.. so I don't know. I knew what I was doing wouldn't get me anywhere, but I hoped things would work out (knowing that it wouldn't). Maybe go to a community college at first and transfer to a university. Instead, when I went to CC, I didn't go to class, found it hard to pay attention, didn't do work, and failed essentially high school courses (math, english) and a few college courses. I just found it so hard to go to class at first, and when I started missing classes and my grades dropped, it just spiraled out of control until I just completely failed. In the CC I'm attending, if you fail a course twice, you can't take it again. Well, I've done that. I tried taking the courses again, telling myself that things would go differently, but it didn't, and now I don't know what to do. I can't take the courses again, so I'm stuck right now with my high school grades being shit. I lie to my family about school, saying I'm attending classes. I leave the house and come back later when no one is home (everyone comes home late), and I'm too scared/cowardly to tell them. I would definitely get kicked out of the house if I did. I've tried self-education (Khan Academy), but again, I give up after just a short period, because I can't pay attention or I lose focus and want to quit. Even if I ended up somehow going to school and getting my high school equivalencies, I don't know what I would do. I have no skills, no interests that could really translate into a job. I do like computers, but don't know much outside of a bit of hardware/building one. I've thought about maybe programming, tried to learn online, but again, I quit shortly after trying. Can I start at another CC? Take the same level courses that I've failed at another school? Or has me failing these courses at the first one messed everything all up? I live in Canada, BC if that's any help. If anyone could point me in the right direction, that would be great.

The second thing is I don't even have my driver's license. I've taken the written exam and passed that but never did the road test, and now my temporary license from the written test expired. I can't even bring myself to find the motivation to do the written exam again. I've forgotten most of it, and need to study for it again. Which I haven't done.

On weekends, I work at my parent's small mom and pop store. I feel like I can't get a different job because I don't have an education, no skills, and I've pretty much worked for only my parents my whole life. I don't think I could get a job having that for my resume and only my parents are references (I'd probably leave that blank anyway).

I could really use some advice on what to do next, and how to do it. I just feel so hopeless and lost, and sometimes juts feel like taking the easy way out and just ending it. If anyone could just.. talk to me, help me through it and motivate me, maybe through text or skype.. I would like that. I don't really have anyone to talk to about any of this, and it's the first I've told anyone/written things all down. Thanks for your time if you've read this.