I'm sorry that my business collapsing made your migraine worse.

So, in short order of what my last month has been like:

• I suffered an emotional break while driving in Pennsylvania, and as such, voluntarily surrendered my DOT Medical card. This means that I am no longer legally able to drive an 18 wheeler...which means I had to dissolve my business, as I no longer have any way to support it.

• I get home, and my Therapist's office is splitting...nobody can answer the fucking phone so that I can set up an appointment with her.

• My 14 year old Shiba, who suffered a stroke 6 months ago, has pretty much given up. My Wife and I take him to the Vet who gives us the option of giving him medication that could potentially keep the degradation from progressing(but not make him better), or euthanize him. He doesn't even have the energy to lick peanut butter off my finger while he dies in my arms.

• I finally tell my parents that I am Transgender, as I have started HRT, and they disowned me.

So, that has been the last month, up until today, this afternoon. I, pretty much, just need a shoulder to cry on. My Wife and I have been switching off on being that shoulder, and we're exhausted. So, I post on a friends facebook page(my facebook messenger is fucked up, it keeps telling recipients that I cannot accept messages), saying I'm distressed and asking her if she can hang out. She deletes it, and sends me the following(censor being my name IRL)

-----, I need you to not post stuff like that on my facebook pictures and statuses. You make it look like we're going through some sort of breakup and we're not. I've already had multiple people ask me who you are and what's going on. I know you're going through a lot right now and I really hope it gets better for you. Eventhough the things (Other Friend) and I are going through are completely different from what you're going through it doesn't make it any less difficult for us.

...Yeah. She is having Jet Lag from her shopping spree in Japan, other friend has work stress. I get it, that sucks, but...really? Since I've been driving truck ever since I separated from the Navy, these two are the ONLY two friends I have. And she's mad because other people are talking to her. Golly gee, I wish I knew what the fuck that was like!