Open letter to ex.

I'm going to post this here because I really feel like I need to say this but I don't want to break no contact.

I'm glad you broke up with me. That needed to happen, I was miserable with you, but too afraid of hurting you to do it myself. You were a really good friend but good god you were an awful girlfriend. Although I'm still really pissed off about how you tagged me along for a year after your feelings for me subsided just to break up with me. I would love to be friends again... but I'm way too jealous of a guy to do that. It feels like I'll never stop being jealous, but then again it felt like I'd never stop being sad a few months ago and I'm fine now. Maybe if I start dating again that'll go away. I hope so because I feel bad for kicking my best friend out of my life entirely. And honestly right now the idea of making you jealous gives me a revenge boner. But that'll probably change if I ever stop being jealous of you.