help me if you want

so i have been crying all night my father told me he fucked up as a dad he wished that i was never born, i know where he is coming from some stuff about me I'm 16 selfish and i used me mom and dad, my dad has made me cry 4 different times today he is drunk and does not care any more. my mother is scared of me killing my self, she dose not know ive wanted to kill my self for so long i just want to take pills and watch the world fade out and die, but the only thing i have left are my dog, my girlfriend and my sister that keep me alive, my sister wont text me back my girlfriend had her brother kill himself so i don't want to talk about it to her because i dont want to hurt her, i love her so much but i just cant take this any more. and then my dog her name is faith, funny huh well she is a pug and dont want to let her go to a shelter and die. after all of that i have had social problems after i was raped by my uncle i never trusted anyone to tell them that . if you have read this far then it counts to something to me so thank you for taking time on me (sorry for any problems with spelling and stuff im sleepy and crying.)