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This is about the internal struggle of a boy with social anxiety going to school. I don't write poetry often so please give fair constructive criticism.

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Did she wave at me?

Ill wave back

Don't wave too long,

She'll think I'm weird

Should i stop and talk to her?

What if she was waving at someone else?

No, ill keep walking

Don't walk too fast

She'll think I'm trying to avoid her

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That teacher said hello

I'll say hello back

Don't seem too happy to see him,

He'll think I'm weird

He isn't even my teacher, why do i care?

I need to get to lunch

Don't walk too fast

He'll think I'm rude

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Where do I sit?

I don't know anybody

Don't keep standing there,

They'll think you're weird

They look nice

But how would i even sit down if i don't know them?

"Hi can i sit here?"

How would i get in the conversation?

No one likes someone who forces their way into a conversation

They'll think I'm weird

Have I been staring this whole time?

Have they noticed?

Ill keep walking

Don't walk too fast

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Should I sit alone?

all the tables are taken

I took too long

Should i get food and try and talk with someone in line?

How would i even start talking to anyone?

The foods probably gross anyways

Should I stand?

No one likes the people who stand at lunch,

Everyone thinks they're weird

Ill keep walking

Don't walk too fast

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Is that an empty seat?

Should I sit there?

What if its someone else's seat?

What if they ask me to move?

They'll think I'm weird

Ill just sit for now

I must look like the biggest freak in the school

Is that girl walking towards me?

Maybe she will stop stop

She's not stopping

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Have I been staring this whole time?

Has she noticed?

She must think I'm weird

She looks anxious

Is she about to sit with me?

She could sit in the seat in front of me

What would I even say?

Please just walk by

Please just walk by

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Is she walking slower?

Does that mean she's about to stop?

She looks nervous

Probably doesn't want to sit with a weirdo like me

Oh god she stopped

Is this her seat?

How would I even respond if she asks me to move?

I would die of embarrassment

she's about to say something

What do I say?

I hope she just asks me to move and get it over with

"Mind if I sit with you"

-Chris Sutton October 28

(Number one)[https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/3qkrh8/wrote_this_while_waiting_in_the_er_for_my_gf_that/cwgu2g5]

(Number 2)[https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/3qnufb/yellow_black/cwgu420]